(dahlias, heliotrope, snap dragons, lavender, african basil, alstroemeria, penstemon)
I began this process one week ago, in the dark of the moon.* As I sat in meditation the intention became clear almost immediately: To love myself wholly and unconditionally throughout this next moon cycle from dark moon to dark moon. In addition to the energies of the moon, the Goddess in her many different forms will evolve as the moon evolves, with different archetypes shifting with each changing phase of the moon.
Since then I have moved from the dark moon, to the new moon, to a waning crescent moon. The Dark Moon corresponds to the Great Mother (i.e., Demeter, Gaia, Pachamama, Mary Magdalene). Her message: “I surrender, I receive.” One opens to the query of an intention that wishes to be heard. The New Moon corresponds to the Goddess of Compassion (i.e., Kuan Yin, Mother Mary, Tara). Her message: “I recognize I seed.” Taking that intention and planting it firmly in the earth and in your soul being. The Waxing Crescent Moon began today, corresponding to the Priestess (i.e., Lady of the Lake, Selene, Vesta). Her message: “I amplify in stillness.” To sit in inward silence, imagining that intention fully blossomed and realized.
And here is where I am hitting a bump.
The first 6 days of this journey were wonderful. The minute I tried to say anything self berating I stopped and said, “No!” nipping it in the bud. Then I fueled myself with golden showers of self-empowering words, phrases, affirmations and prayers, calling in every spirit teacher, power animal, or goddess who could witness/support me.
It has been unlike anything I have ever known. My heart is so full! So much beauty around me:)
Now I feel the criticisms and inadequacies creeping in. Some of this is around my issues with addiction, which I have decided to take a rest from confronting. Some of it is other messy stuff. My intention is to love myself no matter what…to know that I am whole, complete, exactly as I am, my flaws, my wisdom, my beauty, my big, hot, messy self. All of it, whole.
It is this that I take in. It is this that I amplify in stillness.
Diana Ray/April Aronoff
Photography By: Diana Ray
*Manifesting with the moon is a practice created by the 13 Moon Mystery School. See http://www13moonmysteryschool.org for more information.